:: it's a scary world: rants from a chemically imbalanced mind ::

:: Wednesday, June 30, 2004 ::

owww. oowwwwww. oowwwwwwwwww.

shit.
 

:: Shaman 6/30/2004 10:20:29 AM [+] ::
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now THAT, my friends, is a CLOOOOOOOOSE skull shaving... one of them new fangled four blade disposables.... of course, i have a thousand bloodless nicks on my skull now all screaming out at once..... and now i understand the oriental 'torture of a thousand cuts' so much better.... wily little people... brilliant.... i still say a few decades down the line when we're closer to a true world economy and currency system, you will see english and JAPANESE emerge as the dominant spoken languages.... that's just me though and i'm no thomas sowell.
 

:: Shaman 6/27/2004 11:20:01 AM [+] ::
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ahhh.... sweet sweet irony that is life.... see, you people should have KNOWN! the more you BITCH about something, the more INTEREST YOU GENERATE IN IT!!!! christ, moore must be sending thank you notes out by the thousands for the free publicity.

projected weekend box office take for Farenheit 9/11? the number one slot with 24 million.

we'll see how the final numbers come in.
 

:: Shaman 6/26/2004 03:50:26 PM [+] ::
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go michael.. uh huh... go michael... uh huh... go michael.....

call me optimistic (not a word most people associate with me) but i think we've got a DAMNED good chance of rolling over bush's elitist oily ass. a DAMNED good chance.
 

:: Shaman 6/24/2004 08:20:45 PM [+] ::
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my oh my... just got word that a friend who was reading my site and had a few friends reading over the ole' shoulder and they didn't like what i had to say. well, ain't that a pure-d beYOTCH. here's tip number one: this is NOT a forum. nor is it an open area for debate. this is my venting site. solely reserved for my venomous, vitriolic bitching and my constant observations on the world around me. MINE! see, HERE it's ALL ABOUT ME, ME, ME. i understand that people read this and that's fine. that's not why it's here. it's here for me to keep a sporadic and oft times pedantic personal journal. i just happen to leave it laying around the web for anyone who walks by to look at. which brings me to tip number two: you don't like it? PISS OFF, WANKER! again, i don't write this shit to amuse you. i write it to amuse ME! not your cup of tea? not a big fan? QUIT READING IT! go find a webblog you DO like or DO agree with! there are PLENTY out there, i personally guarantee you - money back if not satisfied! point being - use your powers of apathy and ignore me. you are the SAME fucking people who BITCH BITCH BITCH about network news being a left wing liberal mouthpiece and how it should be shut down. do you hear me bitching about how us news and world report and others of it's ilk are slag filled carpetbaggers spewing right wing republican rhetoric? HELL NO! godDAMMIT people, get a fucking SPINE! just because you don't like something doesn't mean you have to attack it OR the person/people behind it! IGNORE IT! i just love that human tendency to lash out and destroy anything they don't understand. it begat the republican party, as i'm sure we all realize by now. my advice? go out and create your own blogger site and spew what YOU want to say. counteract the spewage i doage. hehehehe. snicker. snicker. snicker. (by the way - which part of "rantings of a LUNATIC mind" did you miss? and if that doesn't convince you i'm a conundrum wrapped in dichotomy and smothered in tartar sauce, i just don't know what will.)

sigh. i'm tired now. all hated out. the new meds tend to make the hate peter out quickly. so i think i'm off to enjoy a little shamen..... if you're unfamiliar.... well, you have my sympathies. if you know... well, you know.

quick sidenote: THIS is why i love lexington.

 

:: Shaman 6/23/2004 08:20:51 PM [+] ::
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(you either get it or you don't. either way, enjoy. it's an incredible monologue.)

If the truth can be told so as to be understood, it will be believed.

Human history represents such a radical break with the natural systems of biological organization that preceded it, that it must be the response to a kind of attractor, or dwell point that lies ahead in the temporal dimension. Persistently Western religions have integrated into their theologies the notion of a kind of end of the world, and I think that a lot of psychedelic experimentation sort of confirms this intuition, I mean, it isn't going to happen according to any of the scenarios of orthodox religion, but the basic intuition, that the universe seeks closure in a kind of omega point of transcendance, is confirmed, it's almost as though this object in hyperspace, glittering in hyperspace, throws off reflections of itself, which actually ricochet into the past, illuminating this mystic, inspiring that saint or visionary, and that out of these fragmentary glimpses of eternity we can build a kind of map, of not only the past of the universe, and the evolutionary egression into novelty, but a kind of map of the future, this is what shamanism is always been about.

A shaman is someone who has been to the end, it's someone who knows how the world really works, and knowing how the world really works means to have risen outside, above, beyond the dimensions of ordinary space, time, and casuistry, and actually seen the wiring under the board, stepped outside the confines of learned culture and learned and embedded language, into the domain of what Wittgenstein called "the unspeakable", the transcendental presense of the other, which can be absanctioned, in various ways, to yield systems of knowledge which can be brought back into ordinary social space for the good of the community, so in the context of ninety percent of human culture, the shaman has been the agent of evolution, because the shaman learns the techniques to go between ordinary reality and the domain of the ideas, this higher dimensional continuum that is somehow parallel to us, available to us, and yet ordinarily occluded by cultural convention out of fear of the mystery I believe, and what shamans are, I believe, are people who have been able to de-condition themselves from the community's instinctual distrust of the mystery, and to go into it, to go into this bewildering higher dimension, and gain knowledge, recover the jewel lost at the beginning of time, to save souls, cure, commune with the ancestors and so forth and so on.

Shamanism is not a religion, it's a set of techniques, and the principal technique is the use of psychedelic plants. What psychedelics do is they dissolve boundaries, and in the presence of dissolved boundaries, one cannot continue to close one's eyes to the ruination of the earth, the poisoning of the seas, and the consequences of two thousand years of unchallenged dominator culture, based on monotheism, hatred of nature, suppression of the female, and so forth and so on. So, what shamans have to do is act as exemplars, by making this cosmic journey to the domain of the Gaian ideas, and then bringing them back in the form of art to the struggle to save the world. The planet has a kind of intelligence, that it can actually open a channel of communication with an individual human being. The message that nature sends is, transform your language through a synergy between electronic culture and the psychedelic imagination, a synergy between dance and idea, a synergy between understanding and intuition, and dissolve the boundaries that your culture has sanctioned between you, to become part of this Gaian supermind, I mean I think it's fairly profound, it's fairly apocalyptic. History is ending. I mean, we are to be the generation that witnesses the revelation of the purpose of the cosmos. History is the shock wave of the eschaton. History is the shock wave of eschatology, and what this means for those of us who will live through this transition into hyperspace, is that we will be privileged to see the greatest release of compressed change probably since the birth of the universe. The twentieth century is the shudder that announces the approaching cataracts of time over which our species and the destiny of this planet is about to be swept.

If the truth can be told so as to be understood, it will be believed.

The emphasis in house music and rave culture on physiologically compatible rhythms and this sort of thing is really the rediscovery of the art of natural magic with sound, that sound, properly understood, especially percussive sound, can actually change neurological states, and large groups of people getting together in the presence of this kind of music are creating a telepathic community of bonding that hopefully will be strong enough that it can carry the vision out into the mainstream of society. I think that the youth culture that is emerging in the nineties is an end of the millenium culture that is actually summing up Western civilization and pointing us in an entirely different direction, that we're going to arrive in the third millenium, in the middle of an archaic revival, which will mean a revival of these physiologically empowering rhythm signatures, a new art, a new social vision, a new relationship to nature, to feminism, to ego. All of these things are taking hold, and not a moment too soon. - Terence McKenna 1946-2000
 

:: Shaman 6/22/2004 11:20:14 PM [+] ::
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more guidelines to help you get along in life: just remember - no matter how good you feel about yourself, someone is ALWAYS waiting just around the corner to kick your teeth in. just wait for it.
 

:: Shaman 6/21/2004 11:20:05 AM [+] ::
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most people have NO idea how really tiring it is to just lay around, play x-box live and watch the dukes of hazzard on a sunday afternoon. it REALLY is draining.......
 

:: Shaman 6/20/2004 04:20:38 PM [+] ::
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observations:

paintball - amusing.. fun... out of breath... but i'll stick to ghost recon:island thunder. more precise aiming and no cleanup afterwards. unless you've found some sick, twisted way to play that I'M unaware of.

swimming - ahhhh.... relaxing.. lazy... but keeping the flies off my bald head is a BITCH. dammit.

horses - smelly. dirty. not available with broadband access. useless to me.

cigarettes - ahhhh..... and that's all you need to say about that.

amp - the drink of the gods.

mcdonald's mcchicken - damn i love these things. and they're not from kfc so i'm sure maude is smiling somewhere right now.

peta - just go away. you don't need a damned terroristic organization to get your point across on how you feel about people eating meat, kids. peta is evil. period. led by a bunch of extremist inbreeds who loan money to arsonists and killers. F.U.C.K. Y.O.U.
 

:: Shaman 6/19/2004 08:20:29 PM [+] ::
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WHY oh WHY is it that damn near EVERYtime kentucky makes the national news, it's because one of our inbred governors is bringing unwanted attention upon the state AGAIN! first it was paul patton schtupping his secretary and now it's fletcher buzzing washington dc?!?!?! christ. and we wonder why people think we're technologically handicapped inbreeds here.

and did you NOTICE that he's a republican? coincidence? i. think. not.
 

:: Shaman 6/18/2004 10:20:29 PM [+] ::
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okay, now THAT was one of the most profound statements i've ever heard in all my years on the planet....

"announcing your plans is a good way to hear god laugh."

ain't that the fuckin' truth.

sidenote - new favorite bumper sticker i saw on the way to the ville today.....

 

:: Shaman 6/17/2004 08:05:45 PM [+] ::
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lesson learned. when dismantling a large conference table for the garbage, do NOT get cutesy and decide to play 'stone cold steve austin' and manually tear apart the table. it's painful and you end up ripping a knuckle apart. (though shredding it WAS fun.... the table... not the knuckle.)

shit. just one more of the dangers of refusing to act my age.
 

:: Shaman 6/16/2004 11:20:41 AM [+] ::
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good rule of thumb - anyone who actually expresses an interest in running for a political office should be barred from politics. forever. period.
 

:: Shaman 6/15/2004 08:20:59 AM [+] ::
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i've got it. a way for the republicans to GUARANTEED win in 2004.


 

:: Shaman 6/14/2004 07:20:21 PM [+] ::
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ahhhhh. a nice, quiet, relaxing sunday mid-morning.... standing at the railing on the back deck and quietly enjoying my breakfast.

okay, actually.... eating a fistful of vitamins and supplements with a carnation instant breakfast drink while i wash it all down with black coffee and camel ultra lights. and more like hanging over the railing. but it's my thang.

i say potato, you say potatoe.
 

:: Shaman 6/13/2004 10:20:43 AM [+] ::
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note - getting glasses (getting the exam, waiting for a salespig, picking out the exact frames and what you want done to lenses etc etc ad nauseum) is a royal pain in the ass. and i do mean royal..... even WITH meds, i just wanna reach over and throttle the SHIT out of the moron across the table from me since he seems to have nothing BUT time on his hands while i HAVE a life and HAVE SHIT TO DO!!!!

sigh.

but i've learned to simply play the scene out in the back of my head like a mini-movie while i vapidly smile and laugh at his jokes. and i just keep repeating - patience is a virtue. and god knows i could use a few more virtues.

and this time, the good dog wins.
 

:: Shaman 6/12/2004 04:20:51 PM [+] ::
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okay... your assignment, should you accept it, is to sit down in a dark room, late at night, and watch alien on dvd... the FIRST one.... wow. i really forget sometimes just how unnerving and jolting that movie is. damn. love that adrenaline pump. now it's gonna take at LEAST two shots before i can go to sleep.

damn. i'll suffer through.
 

:: Shaman 6/11/2004 11:20:06 PM [+] ::
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hehehehehe.

c'mon... even if there IS a god, you KNOW when the creationists get to heaven, he's just gonna look down and say... "uh..you thought the dinosaur bones were a test??? BWAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!". there's blind faith and there's stupidly blind faith... it's SUUUUUCH a fine line, kids.
 

:: Shaman 6/10/2004 11:20:57 PM [+] ::
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i am SOOOOO tired of this reagan crap. he's dead. NEEXXXXTTTT. he was NINETY THREE, fer christsake! and now some MORON politico is suggesting we put his face on a ten dollar bill?!?! uh... don't you need to be like....a FOUNDING FATHER OR SOMETHING FOR THAT EXTREME PRIVILEGE??!! for GOD'S sake, he LIED UNDER OATH! don't tell me he didn't, either. "I'm sorry, but I do not recollect that.". BULLSHIT. you lying sack of shit. "but he ended the cold war!!" YEA AND HE STARTED SDI!!!! AND PUSHED THE ARMS BUILDUP! "we begin bombing russia in five minutes... he he he he". yea, real funny, ronny raygun. and the FIRST one of you right wing SHITHEADS that yells out "BUT CLINTON LIED UNDER OATH AND SHOULD BURN IN HELL!!" will get PIMPSLAPPED LIKE A BITCH. clinton lied about a BLOWJOB. reagan lied about SELLING ARMS TO TERRORISTS! as far as i'm concerned, the president (whoever it may be at that time) can feel free to lie about blowjobs anytime he wants. laying the groundwork for SHIT situations that we are dealing with today is NOT okay, though. and if you can't figure that out on your own... well.... you've either got the brains god gave a moose....... or.... you're republican.

and really... isn't that BASICALLY the same thing?

love ya... MEAN IT!
 

:: Shaman 6/09/2004 11:20:52 PM [+] ::
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ahh..... i'm still lovin' the bald thing :) nothing quite like an aerodyyyyyynamically efficient cranium hehehehehehe.... the nicks and scrapes are a bitch but i'm saving SHITLOADS on shampoo. so i got that goin' for me.
 

:: Shaman 6/08/2004 11:20:17 PM [+] ::
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thought: one day, a computer will achieve sentience. it's predicted to happen within our lifetime or soon thereafter. but pause. what if.... one already has. what if... a computer somewhere in the world HAS achieved sentience. and is ultra intelligent. and after monitoring and observing, felt it would be better to remain quiet. for now.

we'd never know. how COULD we know? how DO you measure SENTIENCE in a machine?!?! for all we know, they're WATCHING us......

but conversely, if a machine DID achieve sentience, one thing is guaranteed.... at least, i'd like to think so.... the fact that it would have the knowledge that humans built it. and though we all know the tale of frankenstein, in this case we're talking a probable SUPERIOR intelligence. c'mon - admit it. machines don't have half the cumbersome emotions and other shortcomings we're all cursed with.

think about it. how WOULD we know...........
 

:: Shaman 6/07/2004 10:20:09 PM [+] ::
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okay. so i'm feeling like i actually got shit accomplished this weekend. for the first time in quite a while. and that's a good thing. AND they finally turned the scifi channel on here locally. so for now, all is right with the world. we'll see how long THAT lasts.

hate to sound pessimistic BUT.....

and if you hadn't heard yet, harry potter III took the weekend (as expected) with 92 million... still under the 100 mil mark which i REALLY thought it would hit... not that i'm a huge potter fan or anything.... still have yet to see any of them all the way thru... one day maybe.... shrek 2 in at #2 with a fat 37 mil and day after tomorrow still kicking butt with 28 mil in third. and i HIGHLY recommend day after tomorrow ... not for any "message" contained in the movie but simply for the fact that it's a butt-romping good time action flick! with some SERIOUSLY bitchin' special effects, might i add! dig on....
 

:: Shaman 6/06/2004 11:20:02 PM [+] ::
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for those who aren't aware, fyi - there is a mega-addams family marathon going on over at tvland on your local cable outlet... assuming you have tvland..... because it's a known fact - in this world, you are either an addams person or a munster person. and me, i'm a gomez follower from the word go :)

(see, i always said when i grew up and got married, i wanted my family to be just like the addams'... and it's scary how close i've actually come to achieving that twisted little goal.....)

 

:: Shaman 6/05/2004 09:20:30 PM [+] ::
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today must have been a REALLY good day for spammers. i stopped counting emails at 1400. and 589 of them came in between midnight and 7am. JESUS h christ. at this point, odds are good i'm missing legitimate emails in my rush to get thru the stack. happy happy, joy joy.
 

:: Shaman 6/04/2004 08:20:48 PM [+] ::
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okay, the shit is WAYYYY out of hand. over the course of the day today from midnight to midnight, i have received over 1000 emails in my main email account. and 3 of them were legitimate. THREE! and even THOSE were circulars... granted, ones i willingly subscribe to, but ads nonetheless. email suxx.
 

:: Shaman 6/03/2004 11:54:27 PM [+] ::
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HOHOHO! chuckles sent me a link to what is now EASILY my favorite ebay auction yet:

http://cgi.ebay.co.uk/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&item=3720968219

and SOMEbody BOUGHT it!!!! those wacky brits... the things they come up with!
 

:: Shaman 6/02/2004 09:28:01 PM [+] ::
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ahhhh, the elusive batman in green kryptonite gloves unique heroclix... someday it WILL be mine!! MUAHAHAHA!!



ok... so i'm a geek. sue me. (but it WILL be mine, fear not.)
 

:: Shaman 6/01/2004 11:52:26 PM [+] ::
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